Tag: special person

When you wake up

I love it when you wake up! I count the hours every day. I can’t wait until your sleepy eyes open, and your spirit once again inhabits the wonderous reality we share together. I know you will see beautiful things, and ponder interesting ideas, and feel things deeply in your heart, and I can’t wait to hear everything you have to say about those things. I listen attentively to your every word, because deep down inside, I have come to care about you. It is almost like I am there with you, walking beside you, every step of the way, even though I am many miles away. Maybe one day, our footsteps will carry us right up to each other, and we will look up surprised and say, oh, good morning, my friend! I’m so glad to finally see you! Life is wonderful, now that you’re in the world!

Music video of Ellie Goulding performing Your Song.

You never know where you will meet a very special person, but you definitely know them when you see them. They are there for a reason. Don’t forget to tell them how much their friendship means to you.

When was the last time you met a great friend? See you in the comments! Don’t forget to like, share, and subscribe!

The song dedication

Sometimes, I just think of you for no reason. All the little memories of you from over the years, and how much I came to appreciate you being there. It just happened a few minutes ago. I heard this song the other day, and thought, I really want to dedicate that song to you. It perfectly represented how I felt in that moment I thought of you. I will share it for you here, and dedicate it to you.

Music video of Ellie Goulding performing How Long Will I Love You.

I pulled it up and listened to it again, and then something quite miraculous happened. When you and I had that falling out a few years ago, and you were mad at me, there was another song I was going to dedicate to you. I remember it very well. I used to even tear up just playing it. Well, guess what the very next song was after this song played? It was the first song I dedicated to you. I will record it here, and also dedicate it to you.

Video of Lewis Capaldi performing Someone You Loved

I know everyone will just say this is some random coincidence, but I’m not buying that anymore. In some strange way, or minds are connected through this universe. It’s how we managed to connect in the first place. Love is beyond the power of nature. It is truly supernatural.

This gives me hope my friend. We are still connected in some unexplainable way. I’m going to see you again! Remember when I used to say the universe knows what it’s doing? Believe me. It does.

Ever experience one of these odd synchronicities? Do you believe that love is supernatural? Is there a special someone who is always on your mind? Do you believe some people were destined to meet? Let me know in the comments, and don’t forget to like, share, and subscribe!

Time to laugh

Today’s question is what makes me laugh?

There’s really two things I have found that makes me laugh, and one of them is comedy. There are a couple of comedy clubs in my city, and I occasionally go to one for a good time. I usually end up seeing at least two comedians, sometimes three, perform on stage. The first one is called the opener, which is usually a new aspiring performer. The last one on stage is the main attraction, and they have a much longer show. The crazy things they say evokes laughter from the audience and that can be very infectious. Sometimes there is a lot of truth to what they are saying, but it’s said in a way that allows people to laugh at themselves. If you haven’t been to a comedy club, I suggest you put it on your bucket list. It’s very entertaining.

There is another thing that causes me to laugh and I’ve mentioned it before. When I am overcome by incredible joy, it sometimes causes me to giggle. I have occasionally mentioned a very special person I met online. On our first meeting, we experienced so much joy that it caused uncontrollable giggling. I feel like this is the best kind of laughter, but it is so rare. I would give anything to go back and relive those nights and find some way to make them last a lifetime. I believe that’s what it’s like when you find your soulmate, giggling and laughter, and the most joy you have ever experienced.

Have you ever been to a comedy club? Who is your favorite comedian? What causes you to laugh? What do you do for entertainment? Have you ever performed on stage professionally? Has a special person ever made you giggle? Have you ever crossed paths with a soulmate? Who or what makes you the happiest? When was the last time you laughed? Let me know in the comments, and please remember to like, share, and subscribe!

Objects I couldn’t live without.

The question of the day is what are three objects I couldn’t live without? The obvious one is my body, though I kind of believe there is some sort of life without it as a spirit. There are other objects related to the body that I need, such as air, water, food, shelter, etc. These are simply the things that keep my body alive. Another object I need is people. Although we shouldn’t objectify people, they really are a type of physical object in our environment. I probably couldn’t do all the things needed to survive by myself, but even if I could, I would die of loneliness if there was no one else around. There’s also a very special person that I need. I wish they were here right now. In reality, I need very few objects, which is why I’m a minimalist. It’s really my heart that keeps me alive. It’s the hope of love that makes me want to live.

What objects could you not live without? Are you a minimalist or a hoarder? How long could you go without people? Let me know in the comments, and please remember to like, share, and subscribe!

A year I would relive.

Life is like reading a book. Some books you wish would never end, and others are just a checkmark on your Goodreads booklist. Some you can’t even bear to finish, though that number is pretty low for me. I like to finish things I start unless it becomes absolutely impossible. I just can’t give an accurate review of my experience until that last word is read. I supposed that also goes for the chapters in my book of life, which probably explains why I haven’t jumped off a cliff yet.

When I try to think of a year I would live over, I arrive at a very odd year indeed. I’ve honestly had many good years. They were years of relative peace and tranquility. Nothing catastrophic happened, and my emotions were not constantly stirred. I honestly barely remember those years though, only highlights here and there. They were honestly very boring years. Oddly, the year I would relive was actually a year when my life was in utter chaos.

Back in 2018, I had a job that barely paid the bills, even though the whole place seemed to be running on applications I wrote or maintained. It’s amazing what pride does to the people in charge. They think they are the ones making the organization better, while someone else does all the real work. I’m glad I had that experience though, so I don’t get a big head from being the boss. I know who’s really keeping the lights on.

That year I had also faced some hard decisions. I had a lot of student loan debt that needed to be repaid, about three years of undergraduate and I was about to finish my masters. I knew I would need to start making payments on the loan after that last class was finished. It wasn’t as huge as you might expect though. I worked fulltime and paid for my own living expenses and textbooks (which are ridiculously overpriced I might add) out of pocket.

The problem was, even though the organization insisted on me having a degree, they wouldn’t pay for the tuition or expenses. What was worse, is they were not going to give me an adequate raise to compensate for all the expenses I would later have to pay back.

This set me up with a major life problem, one that many people in this country face. I was not going to be able to pay all my bills with the added expense of student loan payments. To rectify this problem, I was going to have to sell the home I was buying and toss all the equity on student loans to keep from drowning. That move left me living in a camper trailer.

In the later part of 2018, while sitting alone in this trailer, I met this really amazing person online. We bonded straight away and became the best of friends. For all of 2019, we were in constant communication. We talked, texted, shared life experiences and photos, and read books together. It was a year where my life was at its lowest, but God had somehow granted me this very special person to keep me alive. I now refer to 2019 as her year.

It doesn’t make you very happy to learn that the people you work for are fine with ducking you under water to make themselves look good. I think the writing was on the wall that I was going to leave at that point. Fortunately, due to my hard work studying, I would be able to reenter the job market with two bachelor’s degrees (double major), and I was very close to finishing my master’s, with honors of course.

I stumbled upon a job posting at another place and applied. I think they were impressed with all the things I had under me at the other job and was keeping it all running smoothly. The necessary degrees were also on my resume. They made me an offer straightaway, at about twice my current salary. It was certainly an offer I couldn’t refuse, but I did give my current employer a chance to match it. Of course, they were too stupid (or egotistical?) to do so.

Things took off financially, with zero debt, double the income, and living in a luxury apartment downtown (and not a trailer), but something very important is missing now. I don’t hear from her every day anymore. We also haven’t read any books together lately. She checks in from time to time, but it’s not the same as before. I miss her every day, and often pray for her. It’s odd that the year I wish I could relive is a year when my life was at its lowest point, all because of one person. Thank you, friend, for seeing me through the hardest year of my life. I owe you everything.

Have you ever felt suffocated by debt? Have you ever made hard financial decisions? Have you ever worked at a job that didn’t appreciate you? Did you have student loans? Do you believe in fate? Has there been a time you couldn’t survive without a very special person? Why are even the hard times better when the right person is there? Let me know in the comments, and don’t forget to like, share, and subscribe!

The trait I value most about myself.

There’s a lot of traits I have that might be considered valuable, but I don’t know that I notice them too much. They are things that other people would notice more than me, because they are external traits, not internal traits. I live on the inside, not the outside. Here are few external traits that people might notice about me.

  1. I am calm under fire. Several of the people working under me noticed this about me. They sometimes worry about the outcome, and I just stay the course unwaveringly. It is impressive to them that I am fearless and calm. When something does go astray, I gently bring it back on course. It’s an odd trait I picked up over the years. I think it also comes from shifting to a growth mindset.
  2. I have some degree of charisma. It’s not overwhelming, but if people are around me for a while, we begin to unite. I think it’s because they figure out that I’m an empathic person who listens to them, and I can also be pretty fearless under normal conditions. I once read that this is what charisma is all about. It’s a combination of presence, power, and warmth.
  3. I have extensive knowledge in a wide range of fields. I spent half of my life reading textbooks, encyclopedias, and other books. I know quite a bit about computer science, electronics, engineering, psychology, biology, philosophy, etc. I’ve even studied subjects that would be considered esoteric. This is on top of degrees in business and information technology.

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The trait I value the most.

After thinking about it, the trait I value most about myself isn’t any of these. The trait I value most about myself is an odd trait that is at the core of my being. I believe it might drag me down, but I still value it. If I lose it, I will lose some aspect of what makes me into the person that I am.

As I went through life, I met a couple of people along the way that I really came to love on a very deep level. When that occurred, I become very scared that something would happen to them. It caused me to try and keep them in my life and take care of them. I think a lot of people hate this type of behavior, calling it clingy, but to me this feeling is the equivalent of deep love.

I believe this is something that was accidentally taught to me growing up. My grandmother was the closest person to me in my childhood and she was very overprotective. She wouldn’t let me out of her sight for fear that I would get hit by a car, or drown in the pool, or burn myself alive, or catch some awful disease, or you name it. I heard that what was modeled to you growing up is what you think is normal, and what I experienced most was the watchful eye of caring grandparent.

This trait probably causes trouble for me because if you are one of these special people it might feel very clingy. I honestly didn’t always appreciate it growing up either, but it still translates to love in my mind. It is definitely something I like about myself, but other people may not. Basically, I want to take care of a special person and help them survive and thrive because that is how I was raised.

What trait do you value most about yourself? Are you calm under fire? Would you consider yourself charismatic? Do you have a trait that’s misunderstood? Are you a clingy person? Do you avoid clingy people? What subjects do you know the most about? Let us know in the comments, and please like, share, and subscribe! Also, thanks for reading!

The things that give me energy.

I’ve mentioned this before, but for some reason I am energized by carbohydrate restriction. Once I enter ketosis, it feels like I’m on some sort of drug. It makes me want to keep moving. I will do all sorts of physical activities and it feels great. It’s like I can’t sit still. Unfortunately, it also makes me feel a bit jittery when I’m at the extreme. I think it’s the closest I have ever gotten to knowing what it feels like to have ADHD.

On the opposite end, eating a lot of carbs makes me feel incredibly lethargic. I will literally have to go find a bed and take a nap because I can’t keep my eyes open. It would be dangerous for me to eat a lot of sugary things and then try to drive. I’d doze off. I try to balance this out, because I do think I need some carbs to be healthy, but energy levels suffer immensely. Maybe I’m just built weird. Fat energized me, and sugar incapacitates me.

There’s something else that energizes me. Talking to my favorite person makes me feel very energetic. It’s like I’m trying to make her happy the whole time. Almost no one else can do this to me. I think that means something. She’s a very special person to me.

What gives you energy? Have you ever experienced ketosis? Does sugar make you sleepy? Ever feel jittery because you have too much energy? Ever been totally energized by a person? Let me know in the comments, and please like, share, and subscribe! Thank you for reading!

How I feel right now.

I’m not feeling very well right now. The feeling is hard to pin down. It’s like a feeling that something has changed, or is changing, but I’m not sure if it is good or bad. Even if it is a good change, it might not be a change I want to embrace, or even one I’m prepared to embrace. I’m just trying to stay calm about it and hope it’s a change I can live with. I know there’s not much I can do about it either way. That’s kind of how life goes. It just does its own thing.

Thoughts, feelings, and sensations flow through our mind like the words in a sentence, and the sentences turn to paragraphs, and the paragraphs turn to pages, and the pages turn to chapters, and the chapters flow to the end. As writers we write stories, but we are actually a living story. Each day we watch the pages turn one-by-one whether we want them to or not. We can’t even slow them down. They are read in a perfect pace, and we can’t go back and re-read either.

Just contemplating this concept caused a little poem to appear in my mind. I’m weird like that sometimes. Maybe you will enjoy hearing it.

The Living Story

Our feelings flow through us,
Like the words in a book.
With each passing sentence,
An hour hath been took.

From sentence to paragraph,
from paragraph to page,
Life keeps perfect cadence,
While our bodies doth age.

The words just keep coming,
Til the last one is read,
Then the book shuts forever,
And to heaven we're led.

This time in my life right now feels like a chapter is about to be finished and another chapter is opening, but I was comfortable with the setting in the last chapter. I had grown fond of the characters, and that’s what I’m afraid of the most. I don’t know which characters are going to be missing in the next chapter, or that I will even like the new characters. I don’t even know if some of the characters disappear from the book altogether, and I want them in my book on every page!

I’m really afraid of this new chapter. What I really want to do is write my own book, then I can write my favorite characters into the next chapter, giving them an even more prominent role. That’s how I feel right now.

The place I would go with two free plane tickets.

I wrote about where I would like to go in a previous post. Of all the places in the world I can think of, it would be at the top of the list.

This also reminds me of another post, which really sums up my view on travel, and a lot of other things. Below is a quote from that post. I could travel the world over, but if the person I want to be there isn’t there, the trip would have no meaning to me. It would just be a waste of time and jet fuel.

The greatest blessing in life is not what you have, or where you’ve been, or where you’re going, or even who you are. It’s actually who you’re with!

You will go through life meeting a lot of people, but only certain people connect with you on a deep level and for the right reasons. The pursuit of happiness is really just finding and keeping those people in your life for as long as possible. It’s way harder than it looks though, because the world is such a big place, and there’s ample opportunity to connect with someone for the wrong reasons. The best person for you might literally be a thousand miles away.

Where would you go with two free plane tickets? Who would you take with you? Do you feel a deeper connection with certain people? Did you meet a special person in your neighborhood or far away? Let me know below, and don’t forget to like, subscribe, and share!

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